I took myself home cos more I drank the more sad I got an I don't wanna be a dickhead I love her and I shouldn't and I don't know how to make it stop or go away its fucking killing me it's fucking me up and I don't know how to turn it off
“You can’t change what’s done, you can’t go back in time, you can’t try to change the hurt feelings or mend the broken hearts. All you can do is learn from your mistakes, and hope you will never regret anything as much as you do now.” -Anonymous
I have made these mistakes over the past week as well. Kicking myself for allowing my pride to shrink so low. Reacting in ways that were totally out of character for me. Saying things out of emotion and anger. That I regret. I was hurt. I can't take these things back. All I can do is move forward. Trust that what's meant to be will be. Everything happens for a reason. It is what it is. I'm on the road to recovery. One heartbeat at a time.
One morning she woke up different. Done with trying to figure out who was with her, against her, or walking down the middle because they didn't have the guts to pick a side. She was done with anything that didn't bring her peace. She realised that opinions were a dime a dozen, validations was for parking, and loyalty wasn't a word but a lifestyle. This day her life changed. Not because of a man, or a job.. life is way too short to leave the key to your happiness in some-one else's pocket ☼