over the course of the last year my childhood best friend and i have gone through hardships and tests of our friendship and we did not survive. Ive been struggling heavily with the loss of our friendship and while i cannot communicate that to her, i needed some type of creative outlet. While i do miss her and want to know her again, i know she is not the person i once knew and she doesnt care about me anymore. that has probably been the hardest pill to swallow, knowing someone for over 12…