Losing me

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i feel like i'm losing myself

In order to save myself, I must destroy first the me, I was told to be. -The Dreamer

This is the lie everyone tries to sell you when you lose someone you love. It's the lie everyone has been trying to sell me since you died 11 months ago. The thing is, it NEVER gets better. When your soulmate dies, it feels like a part of you was ripped from me and a part of me died. Sometimes, this statement isnt even true, because no matter how long it's been, it will NEVER get better and I know I will a NEVER Get used to it.

id be lying

The loneliness after loss is unlike any other kind. It’s the silence in the room, the empty chair, the urge to tell someone something—only to remember they’re gone. Grief doesn’t just break your heart; it reshapes your world. In this honest Substack essay, I write about the deep, quiet loneliness that follows loss, and what it means to live in the space someone once filled. Read the full piece on Substack.

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I was so afraid of losing you until I realized you never really belonged to me in the first place. Because even though my heart was with you, yours was with everything and everyone else. So instead of being afraid to lose you, I sat back and watched YOU lose me.

I wonder. You say you miss me and want to spend time with me but your actions say something completely different.

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Losing someone unexpectedly changes everything. This quote speaks to the deep fear and uncertainty that comes after sudden loss — the way grief shakes your sense of safety and reminds you that nothing is promised. If you’ve experienced unexpected loss, you’re not alone. Save this for when you need to feel seen in your grief. Read the full essay on Substack.