I have to live with a mental illness. I have no clue why, but I know God must have a reason. I should be dead, but I'm not, so God must have a reason. There's so much that I should be, could be, or would be, but God hasn't allowed any of it to happen.
It's hard to try and forget someone, even when they have hurt you so much yet your heart still loves them. I don't think I will ever understand why you are hurting in the first place. You ignored me and pushed me away all the time, yet get so angry when I move on. Remember to always say your feelings people!! Never lie or try to go against how you feel!!! its a disaster waiting to happen!
Or now you do start making an effort but is it real? Will it last? Can I guard my heart and still be hopeful? Is it too late for my heart? Do I live on as is, do I make a change, or do I accept the reality that is and the fate that is before me?
Pushed me away. "You know ehat, I don't get it. One moment you push me away, the next you come back and then you push me away all over again. I love you, I still do and b I probably will forever because I knoe tou are so worth it, all ofnit. But its hard for me too"