Trust me, I know how it feels. I know exactly how it feels to cry in the shower so no one will hear you and waiting for everyone to fall asleep so you can fall apart. For everyting to hurt so bad you just want it all to end. I know exactly how it feels.
I regret lots of the things I did, but so many things I'm glad I did. Somehow those things helped me to grow. The wild life the fights, even the drinking helped to change me. There were times I should not have survived but I did.