What you said today didn't make me mad at you or angry with you. It made me mad at ME. It made me ashamed. I don't wanna be so crazy. I need to change how I am. I don't ever wanna know that you felt that way with me. I hate it so much. I just need to get my head above water and start straightening things out. Just give me a chance. Give me some time. Don't forget how much I love you despite all this dumb stuff that's happening.