Why do I do this to myself. I create this monstrosity of pain and grief and then I wonder why I'm so sad. I wonder how I got this way, when in reality, it happened because of me. I knew all along. And it's all my fault. And I can't do anything about it.
Do not fear the unvarnished truth. Especially when considering or being in a committed relationship. Sugar coating gets you off easier, but only temporarily. Telling it like it is, however, will make it easier to live with yourself and better for the other person in the long run.