It's getting tougher to choose. I want almost all in some form. So many are connected from perspective. Trying to choose the bases to build on. Competence. Connected to my preparation needs. Connected to Stability & Prosperous & Achievement in my mind as well. But also very basic for me. We've talked before about having a sense of certain people. Strong people. People you don't worry about pitying, cuz you just believe they can handle shit.
Depression is the worst kind of killer. It corners you at night, or when you're all alone, and slowly eats away at any shred of happiness it can fine, until there's nothing left, but pain, and eventually, death.
I tried so hard to get better, to get over this, to forget it all and move on and I thought I was getting to the point where I could say that I am feeling a lot better, but right now I couldn't feel any worse... by seeing that you felt that staying with me would have been settling.