The moment that you feel that just possibly you're walking down the street naked exposing too much of your heart and your mind and what exists on the inside, showing too much of yourself, that's the moment you may be starting to get it right.
THIS is a debilitating side effect of living with a narcissist for 30 years. You never know what they are scheming or when they will deceive you next... but you know they have a hidden agenda and it's coming again and again. The only way to protect yourself is to be on guard every minute. It is exhausting and creates paranoia... and they love that they have that power over you. A very good reason to quit this bullshit.