Meditations on the word loss: Can we really ever lose those who die? An interesting read. I've often thought the same thing about the word "loss", that even though it's easier on the ears than "death" and "died", it still didn't make sense.
I go from being in a great mood and really excited about things to feeling nauseous at the drop of a hat. I've gotten sick many many times out of sheer nervousness right before I'm about to be in a situation where I know I'll be overwhelmed.
I'm terrified because I know I'm falling back into cutting every single day. I'm bleeding and I've gone back to bandaging my legs and hips. The cuts are deeper and deeper and I think as soon as I move out of home I'l make sure l die.