And the thing you have to understand about her is she'll kill what she desperately wants, out of fear of the pain. Because somewhere along the way someone convinced her she didn't deserve it. So she destroys, telling herself holding the knife hurts less.
"I would give anything to be held… to be treated like a child and be found when I am lost… to be gathered up in arms that feel big when I feel so very small and so very alone. I would give anything for a moment like that right now.
and sometimes she'll get sad and she'll share it with you. not for you to cheer her up. just be quiet and feel it with her. because sometimes she needs to feel it to let it go, but she doesn't want to feel so alone.
And she knew without a doubt, that all the broken, shattered forgotten pieces of her soul were worth putting back together again, because she became her beloved and found new light and love along the way