I don't think. I know. I have almost hit all of my friends. My friend Mirna, who means the absolute world to me because she is like a daughter to me and I crave her innocence, tickled me, and I almost socked her. The flashbacks are happening. I HAVE hit a guy named Ramon, and I was screaming at him to never touch me again, not seeing him but someone else. God, I'm a fucking monster. I don't deserve my friends.