Make sure that God is the one who shut the door. If God really did shut the door then stop banging on it. Otherwise, Matt 7 "Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you.
I don't know where the truth ends and the facade begins.but I do know there's only one soul to let go of. Yes, that's my prayer, help me to release him from my heart Father. Whoever he is. You know who he is.