Ernest Hemingway was no stranger to suffering. His writing was a coping tool to help him face the losses in his life. Both his father and brother committed suicide. If you are suffering in silence please reach out for help.
Don't cry infront of them, please just fight back the tears. Please, just don't let them see me cry. Anxiety in those situations. I know this feeling so well. I hate it. This feeling is the worst. Anxiety causes it.