You can definitely skip some of the steps because when my mom died I went from shock to guilt straight to acceptance, but my sister got stuck in depression for a while so yeah, feel free to switch them around or skip some.
What was it like before you burned him? Did you hold his hand and watch his skin turn purple, the color of the bruises you don't remember inflicting on him? Did you watch his eyes sink and imagine him old and gaunt and full of years, because you'll never get the chance? It wasn't your choice to see him like that, to remember him that way. It never is. <--- previous