I pray not to be alone, to have and to hold someone to be with someone and more and more I find myself embracing being alone and saying goodbye to love, affection and attraction. I find being friends is so much better then jumping into a relationship. It's changing me now, he's changing my heart. Nothing cruel, no judgement but the very most thing I desire is the very most thing that can and will destroy me. So I have to be careful and listen to my instinct.