Jesus didn't ask God for to give him an easier task. He willingly accepted God's plan for him. He knew that God would give him the strength and courage to make it through. God never abandoned Jesus and he will never abandon us, Stay strong You are loved.
Trust God, for he knows what is right. (except, i have a man who thinks he deserves it, and honestly, he does not deserve it) so perhaps God will place my heart in the hands of a man who truly deserves it!
Corinthians / Bible In My Language 1 Corinthians King James Version (KJV) 9 But as it is written, Eye hath not seen, nor ear heard, neither have entered into the heart of man, the things which God hath prepared for them that love him.