Somehow i guess I thought if I loved you enough and if I was good enough and if I was good enough to you that you would love me back and I could finally get what I want at least once but I couldn't even do that and after all my efforts you still don't wan
I'm trying to understand this new dynamic between us. It's not as simple as, "You either want me or you don't. I hate that. Keeping you in my life might kill me. But letting you go will. Dang this is my life with one special person.