I'm not sure if you truly ever heal after the loss of a loved one you just learn to live life without them, and I will never be whole again. I will learn to live with the emptiness of the hole in my heart.
I try to be strong. Sometimes though I cant handle it. Sometimes I have to remember that Im just a man. A man with feelings . I need to cry , i need to allow sadness . Then I wipe tears away and get back up, and keep going strong.