Love this, sometimes people are self defesting. They have a hard time letting go of themselves to experience something to the point that the experience isn't seen in truest light but in manipulated form of their expectations of outcomes.
"Dead people receive more flowers than the living ones because regret is stronger than gratitude.
Bitch okay no I used to roll my eyes at shit like this but it's real true. I carry the shit I've been through like a damn trophy. Not because I'm proud of it (I'm not) but just because it's made me who I am.