It hurts, no one can understand how you really feel. We hide our pain, put on a brace face and carry on. Being strong is hard especially for long periods of time, coping on your own. I feel the pain of others, I really do.
I finally got back my peace of mind yesterday. And I could feel the effect it had on me immediately. Thank you God for the strength and steps it took to find it. I am at peace now and it is a beautiful feeling.