A lot of people talk to themselves; it's nothing singular to me. You don't a mental illness to do it. The stigma is there anyway. The difference is you can all hear it and you don't like it, which is really too bad, all things considered.
"How lucky I am to have something that makes saying goodbye so hard" -Quote from Winnie the Pooh. I am blessed to have multiple people in my life like this specifically Scott Lynny and Drewby. Faithful friends and chosen family ❤️
There is still great beauty and kindness in the world. And there are still wonderfully good people out there. Don't give up on people and you'll find that many of them wouldn't even think of giving up on you. Faith in humanity restored.