"You forgive people simply because you still want them in your life". but are they worth it or are they slowly eating away at your happiness? Life is short changes need to be made or you'll have to limit your time with them.
I said to someone I know, "I don't know why this hurts so much". And she said, "it hurts because it matters". And that was a huge thing for me to realize. That there are things in life that hurt. And they hurt because they are important.
I crave you in the most innocent form. I crave to say goodnight give you forehead kisses and to say that I adore you when you feel at your worst. I crave you in ways where I just want to be next to you and nothing more or less.
Accept that years were wasted on an alcoholic. Accept that you were married to a man who was in denial. Let go of the abuse you took from an alcoholic. Let go of the man who chose drinking over his children and wife. Have faith in what will be.