Tonight...I've never hurt like realizing that I'm truly alone. That it's all just me. That when it comes down to it, no one gives a shit. That I'm not worth the effort. Knowing this is true, is the greatest pain I've ever felt.
Maylea, I want you to hear this clearly, I love you with all of my heart and always will. I LOVE YOU, I want you to be happy and I know you don't want happy with us anymore so its time to stop, we can't force a relationship if only one of us wants it baby. Go now and find the happiness you deserve wherever that is, you know it isn't with me.
Everything I try to make better i fuck up even worse, I give up. I'm going to be a ghost till I die, I'll try not to help, not to get involved. That's what everyone wants right? No one wants to know me. I should just find a hole, curl up, and die!! All i do is fuck everything up. I'm so sorry if you know me, I'll leave you alone if you want, if you don't know me I only cause pain and I'm not worth your time. I'm sorry for wasting everyone's time
You never know that you love someone until you have lost them. That is the truest statement that you will ever come to know. I loved, no I love a man. He wasn't perfect, neither was I, but God blessed us... And one day he just walked out. Have you ever watched something end right before your eyes and all you could do was walk into the room, pick up your bag and walk away? I've been told, read, posted and believed that if you can find anything, no matter how small to hold on too. You fight…