12 Apostles had to be true believers in Christ to think He was worth dying for. Tell me again how hard it is for you to live all God's laws . The apostles certainly illustrate how far we have fallen from true devotion.
Spiritual Directory Assistance - I have not checked all of these yet, but it's sure worth a try. I am a member of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints. Some of these are found in the Book of Mormon.