it hurts so bad that you don't want me, I lost the love of my life and my best friend, but as time moves slowly it starting to heal. Thank you to the Divine and for my Buddhist Practice that allows me to understand that her loved saved me.
As I'm trying to come up with something to say, he stands there looking at me. He loves me and I have never been able to say the samething. I want to, but I can't love him the way I should. So I say something that will break him, As I say it, I hate myself. "Eric, you need to get the F out of my life. I never loved you and I never will," Emily -----> Eric