Every single attempt at self-improvement is a step in the right direction on the path to GREATNESS! And I am not gonna sugarcoat it: trying new things is scary as hell, and hey, you might fail and fall flat on your face... but at least you tried. At least you know deep down inside that you put in your all. Trying is a key step in learning, improving, and growing.
What you don't see is that you showed me. You never gave me closure. It hurt so bad begging for you to just look me in the eye and break my heart instead of just looking away and making me tear myself apart. I wish you would have said things you regretted then not have said anything at all. It may seem like you gave me mercy but in reality you only gave me hell.